Praise And Self-Esteem - Short Piece

In a realm utterly new to me 

Theatre performance

I often underestimate myself, whatever the pursuit

The Director sheds a profound moment in my life

The approval and smile

The double pat on the back

Coupled with a thumbs up

For a performance rehearsal I had two days to learn and choreograph

I felt confused without words running through my head

How is this even possible?

No feedback for improvements or tweaking?

I smiled nervously, slightly hunched in an awkward posture

I don’t know 

Maybe I do know but I’m in denial of myself

Self-sabotaging the right and openness to accepting the love

Because deep down 

I still believe I’m undeserving and bragging

It’s almost delusional

The clear evidence presented

And I reluctantly listen to it, feeling a disconnect

As Taylor Swift says

“It’s me, hi, I’m the problem it’s me”

As for my case, this is certainly a me problem

One I endeavour to continue challenging

Because I am deserving

I just need to truly believe it for myself